Lately, I have been quite obsessed with my weight. I have gained, lost, gained, lost and gained again for the last 6 years. I have tried 3 kinds of diet so far for the last decade. The Atkins diet, Vegetarian Diet and lately, the most effective- the Weight Watchers Diet. I have gone from a coach potato to a full time gym rat and lately have been enjoying myself with the latest Zumba craze. Though I do not have the discipline I once had when it comes to exercising, I try my best to at exercise for at least 3 times a week. It has been really HARD. The hardest part was actually trying to maintain the weight loss. Heaviest weight so far in this lifetime was a whopping 187 lbs (9mos on the way of course) and lowest so far was that of July 2012 at 108lbs.
Bottom line is, its hard. Its hard to let go and feel bad about yourself. Its even harder when you reached your goal and feel confident that you can let go again (thinking youre an expert that you can easily lose it again).
It a vicious cycle.
Here I am back at 130lbs. Target weight, 115.
God help me.
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2009 @130ish lbs |
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2008 149lbs |
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2010 140ish lbs |
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2011 130ish lbs |
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2008 134lbs |
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July 2012 108lbs |
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2013 July 122lbs |
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2014 128lbs
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